I love being Spiritual.
The responsibilities are simple. Be nice to everything and everyone. Nothing complicated.
The joys are quite great too. The feelings of peace, love, and joy
experienced while communing with nature, or connecting to the Universe in some
way is simply exhilarating.
Yet, I am not one for blind faith. I am not necessarily a sceptic. I believe that everything is possible.
However, I also like to know how things work. It’s the way my brain is wired. Since I was a little child. When I received a new present, be it a car or
a nicely bound book, my one and only question was always: “How does it work?” I took everything apart trying to understand
how it worked. Always getting into a lot
of trouble for it. Nonetheless I
did. I can’t help it. It’s in my nature.
So, when someone says: “You have to raise your vibration”, I
take it at face value. Sure, it makes
sense. In some form of instinctive
super-natural-spiritual gut feeling, it seems right. Yet I cannot help asking “but … how does it
work!”?
Karma is another universal law that is somewhat
intuitive. Yet we see bad people having
a good life, and we see good people suffering.
How does it work?
Similarly, someone explains the law of attraction. This is somewhat more complicated. Sometimes you attract the same energy, but
sometimes you attract the opposite? How
does that work? There must be some rules
a little stricter than an intuitive sense of, maybe right and possible wrong. These rules are so vague they make it
impossible for me to use them for advice. HOW DOES IT WORK?
This was starting to take up a large portion of my
attention. As it is possible to see from
the dates of my previous wave of posts, in 2015-16 I had been having a good period
of Spiritual growth. The Universe was
granting me a greater understanding, and we had a relationship closer than
ever.
I thought we were close enough for me to get bigger bites of
Universal Truths. So, I asked. Like many questions before had been answered and
improved my perception of the Universe, so I asked a new question. It was ambitious, but I thought I could
handle it. I said it. HOW DOES IT WORK?
I could feel as if the Universe was a displeased by and
frowned upon my arrogance. I could also
feel the Universe was enthused by my curiosity and thirst for knowledge. It would have raised an eyebrow as it answered,
if it had them. “Are you sure? I can’t
use words to explain that, it will have to be a thought”. Yes of course I am sure, I thought. I was trembling with excitement at the
thought that all the secrets of the Universe would be open to me.
“It’ll blow your mind” the Universe said. I closed my eyes and held my breath, ready
for the great revelation.
I could feel the Universe had a raised eyebrow and a
somewhat mischievous smile that looked at me as if to say: “let’s see how you
handle this!”.
Then it hit me. A single
thought. Not longer than an infinitesimally
small fraction of a second. There they
were. All the secrets of the Universe had
been unlocked. I guess that’s what Mozart
meant when he said that his symphonies came to his head complete.
Yet nothing made sense.
I walked around dazed for weeks.
What did it mean? What was I
supposed to do with it? How could I make
it make sense?
I went through different stages. At first, I was angry at the Universe. Why make it so complicated? Then I was angry at myself. How could I have been so arrogant. Then I was just angry.
Over the next few years, I kept meditating. Slowly, all the information begun to unravel. I was gently led towards Quantum Physics,
String Theory, and some Philosophical ideas that helped me.
And a new perspective begun to emerge. A view that helped me make more sense of
everything that I could not make sense of before. This was when I started realising that I was
moving away from Spirituality. I was
becoming post-Spiritual. I guess …
after-spiritual … How to call it? Post-spiritual(ism) can be better
defined at a later date.
This new appreciation has given me the opportunity to begin coming
up with a new interpretation of how the Universe works, which is what I will share
in this blog in future posts.
I must emphasise that this is just an interpretation given
by the limited understanding capabilities of my brains. It is research, more than anything. A Quest.
Steps in the path of personal development that will not only expand Spiritual
understandings, but also enable to learn a lot of new stuff! Never stop asking. Never stop wondering.
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